I just felt compelled to write a (hopefully) brief journal entry about Gackt, and my personal thoughts and feelings regarding him and what's been happening with him lately.For those of you who don't know about the recent allegations against him, I'm not going to dignify the accusers with going into it here. I also want to state up front that everything I am about to say are, as I just stressed, my own personal viewpoints. I am also not going to dignify any haters out there by arguing any of them with you, or getting into any verbal fights with you, or anything whatsoever, so if you're one of those, just keep your mouth shut and move on now. I am NOT going to address any of this utter crap on my page, or my group's page. This is a journal entry about my own personal emotions, as I've stated above. If you want to gossip about him, PLEASE go elsewhere.
I would appreciate if you leave a comment it merely be about things I am about to talk about. I would disable comments altogether but it won't let me, so just bear in mind if you have nothing nice to say, please respect my feelings and don't say anything at all. However, I wanted to get this out there, and more importantly, I wanted Gackt to know it. Thank you.
For those of you who do follow me, and have followed me for some time, I know that my feelings towards him are perfectly clear. They come out in my artwork and my writing, in my dedication to my group, Team Gackt, in pretty much all I do in my everyday life. I know that might sound dramatic. But he is such a part of my life, his presence in it is always constant in some way, shape or form.
It breaks my heart to read the latest blog entry he wrote, because he's understandably very upset, and some of that he feels about Japan as a whole. For me, he is the one who has shown me what it means to be Japanese, and to be proud of it. I'm not saying I wasn't ever proud of being such, but until a few years ago, I wasn't interested in that part of me, either. When I discovered Gackt, I discovered a whole side of myself that had never come out before. I learned an entirely new appreciation of my heritage and the culture. I don't believe I would have traveled there 19 months ago if it weren't for him, my being a fan of his and my need to discover, in part, where I come from.
He has taught me to dream, and to believe in those dreams. I would never have imagined when I first became a fan, that I would be so blessed to communicate with him three times via email within a six month period. Twice while I was online when he was, so the connection was immediate and heartfelt. I have never been a fan of anyone before who gave his email address out and actually takes the time to write fans back. I have never also seen anyone use Twitter the way he does, too, to get online and to talk to as many of us as he can in as much time as he is able. The love he has for all of us fans is apparent. He gives so much of himself in everything he does for us, and it makes me sad and angry that there are stupid people out there who are trying to destroy all of it. Because when it comes right down to it, he's a human being too, with his own feelings and dreams, and hurt and sorrow, too. And what has touched me during all of this is that he has been worried about us. Not that we would turn against him and believe the lies, but that he seems to have been worried that we've been hurt by it, too. I think he knows, though, that we stand beside him and believe in him. He has handled all of it in a way that makes me proud to be a fan.
I guess what I just wanted to say is that Gackt will always have my love and my support, because of what he has done and given to me on a personal level. For most of you reading this, you probably feel similarly to me, and you don't need my words to tell you what you already know about this amazing, generous, caring person. But I wanted to say it anyway.